Thursday, July 24, 2003
wat i'm feeling now just cannot b described with words.. its just a feeling of dispair n hopelessness i guess.. plus a tinge of bitterness n confusion.. its achingly painful... painfully aching... i dunno wat i'm feeling...........
something i wrote during geog lec....
Big fat liar
Acutely irritating bugger
Stupid idiotic moron who
Thinks he rocks but is
Actually just a pathetic
Retard who i wish would
Disintegrate
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
its weird how u r unaware of so many things happening around u.. u think u know them, but actually u dont. u think they know u, but actually they dont either. u think tt they're warped, but u may b more screwed up than them.. its amazing how ppl can put on a facade for so long n hurt others when they reveal their true colours.. its so difficult to decipher.. so hard to decide who's who.. n who's not who.. the ppl who r right by ur side now, may b the ones tt u hate in the future.. no matter how hard u try to protect yaself, u'll neva know when u'll get hurt.. n u know wodz the most hurting? when ppl whom u trust, whom u've known for a lifetime, who r close n have always been great pals decide to jeopardize this with their stupid malicious ways.. then u tell urself tt since tt is who they truly r, they're really not worth u feeling upset abt.. but then u think abt those happy, innocent times when all u did was laugh n njoy each other's company.. n u again start to wonder y they did wat they did.. n u get upset all over again.. mayb ppl do change.. n drastically too... n whether its for the betta or not, there's nothing much u can do.. mayb u cld have done smthng before they began to change, but its too late now... changing them back is certainly gonna be an arduous task.. but u know wat.. there's no pt lamenting.. just move on n put those unpleasant things behind u.. mayb one day, just mayb, u'll finally understand n all will b well again............... who m i kidding?!
Sunday, July 20, 2003
wateva.. sux.. i really don understand.. like wth.. sux to be made use of.. esp by ya so-called fren.. like how can u do tt.. y wld anyone do tt to their "frens"??!!?? its damn irritating.. if u're gonna do smthng tt's gotta do with someone else.. u shld at least haf the courtesy to actually inform the other party of wodz really going on... n actually let them haf the full knowledge of the situation n when they really give their consent, shld u proceed with ya plans... like wth la.. when they find out wat was really going on.. its certainly not very nice.. esp when u're supposed to b "gd frens".. tt feeling really sux... U SUCK. there's no such thing as "u din mean it".. cos it all started with a motive, an intention.... if u think its no big deal.. think again! its subjective ok.. it might not b of any significance to u cos u're not the one being made use of, u moron! wah lau.. damn pissifying! u'll neva noe how it feels like cos u'll neva b in tt situation. u really SUcK. n if u din think it was making use of somebody.. u're wrong!! it was so obvious wat ur real motive was, oKAy! blardie hell.. just fuck off.